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Today, when I took Gran home from Tesco, we had a row when I decided to take a Shortcut to the Chappel to visit our Family Grave. She took a huff following.

Then I decided to have a Walk at Springhill; outside Moneymore; then head to Armagh. Just when I was taking a Side Road a Car I had passed almost hit me. I maintain he should’ve given way, but still it made me realize how Pig Headed I can be at times.

On the way I stopped for a Coffe, which did me the World of good. Then went to Armagh Cathedral for 5:30 Mass as I didn’t go this morning; though I went to Confession Yeaterday Evening. I feel better now.

Pictures taken at Springhill will be sent to Terri and Georgie when I get back home.

There’s going to be so much to get done today that you might feel a little daunted about getting started. By midday you could even find yourself downright overwhelmed. Take a break, Cancer. Take a long lunch on an outside terrace, weather permitting. Breathe deeply until the stress subsides. You may need to concentrate on finishing only one or two minor tasks today and put the rest off until tomorrow. Remember, too much stress can take its toll on your health!

I am stressing myself out too much. I have been sending messages with Terri, to and from. I will take it easy and enjoy my Gig.

Having had a convo on MSN with Terri last night I set my alarm for Half 8 this morning.

I woke up at half 7 to go to the Toilet, then went back to bed until the alarm sounded an Hour later. Then Gran went spare over her Tablets. It was probably a storm in a Teacup, but try telling that to her.

Then I went for a walk to the main Shop then over to the Shop where me and my Brother usually get Breakfast; which took 30 Minutes. I had breakfast there, but not too much. Afterwards I got a lift home.

I still feel a bit drowsy, but I’m feeling better inside.

You need to stay in step or with the conventional during this Quarter Moon, Cancer. It may seem like a long week for you, but this is the best way to overcome the tendency not to get enough sleep, or to mix business and pleasure. Try to take problems in stride, instead of taking an unrealistic view of them, or blowing them out of proportion. It’s all about following the rules and putting your best foot forward this week: this is not a good time to try and fly by the seat of your pants.

In other words, try and follow the OA program. The Chair of the Armagh meeting said to me that she thinks I’m losing weight. I am the world’s worst judge at Body Figures, but I take the complement.

Any outstanding issue I have I’ll discuss with my Sponsor.

I’m having a better day today.

This Morning I bought products to make my own Dinner; curry, again; instead of ordering a Sunday Lunch. Then I did some prayer and readings. Then afterwards went to get the Car Washed; a self-service place that is cheaper than where I usually go.

Then I went to Drum Manor outside Cookstown for a dander. I walked for about 15 minutes as the park was about to close. I took some pictures on my iPhone.

I’m now anticipating my meeting. I went to Subway for Dinner since it’s cheaper and healthier. I walked to and from the venue for the meeting and the Shop where the Subway is.

Good day, hope it continues.

Few things happened:

Sponsor rang to say She couldn’t come. Neither did the local women who were interested.

When we arrived a guy from Latvia; who works at the Building; came and had a convo which seemed to last an eternity.

I had to interrupt my Mate’s share as I had to go to the Toilet. :eek

But I’m glad the meeting took place. I need as many meetings as possible. Also, I promised my mate I’ll pick her up Tomorrow for Armagh Meeting.

The readings I chose were ones I read over the past few days. One was about a Valeditorian (sp?) who wanted to become a Lawyer and resented everything. The other was the opening extract from ‘Lifeline Sampler’ which described the fundamentals of the fellowship.

So far, so good. Must remember to take things a Day a Time.

We received a letter today from the Civil Service Pension Fund; based in Derry; about the Pension my Mum had with them when She worked there. Her time in the Civil Service was spent first at Stormont during the worst times of the NI Troubles; Mid 70’s; then after I was born She worked at the Jobs and Benefits Office in Cookstown.

The letter was addressed to Gran, but it requested details of her next of Kin; who are me and my Brother. This is welcome news at a time when I’ve felt that I’m over-stretching myself.

Today I realised exactly how cunning my addiction is.

After Mass was over I wanted to get my Sunday Lunch collected; I had pre-ordered it prior; and get Home as quickly as Possible. My Gran went berserk saying, “You’re gonna hit the Car!” which sent me dolally too. The Queue at the Parking Lot was unbearable. But all I could think of was my Dinner and getting it as quickly as possible.

Then I went to Cookstown to see if I could lift my friend there and take her to the Armagh Meeting. I stopped at an Internet kiosk and checked my email, only to find a PayPal transaction which occurred earlier untoward to me. I automatically assumed my Brother had gained access to my Account and started pranging over it. I texted him asking if he did, he said he didn’t. So I left it there.

After my Friend texted saying She couldn’t make it I headed over to Armagh. On the way I thought of the words ‘Cunning, Baffling, Powerful’ and started reciting to myself a few things I’m grateful for; such as my Health, Finaicial Stability and Circle of Friends. I was busy sending texts and making calls when I arrived in Armagh. Then, shock horror, the Battery went flat.

But once the meeting started I felt relieved. The meeting was a member’s story in relation to Step 3. She described how She resented the concept of God after her Devout Father died when She was young. We laughed at her quips and concurred with her pain. It put my ‘problems’ into perspective.

The Building where the meeting was held had a Plug for Valentine’s Day; ‘God loves You, here’s a Rose for his love’. The building is run by two Nuns. I picked one to give to Gran to make up for the day.

On the positive side, when I took Gran to SuperValu in Magherafelt we saw our Cleaner’s Mum and our Cleaner’s Children shopping for Easter Eggs. Our Cleaner’s Mum commented on how Young she looks for her age. She was all glad to see them; the Daughter who’s 8 or 9 knew my Gran’s name as She has been in our House before.

As Allie said to me on TRN, “If life deals you Lemons, make Lemonade!”

Today’s New Moon emphasizes marital or business partnership funds and other financial entanglements with others you are close to, Cancer. Anything like jointly held money or property, alimony, wills, taxes or other matters of this type will probably require your attention during the next four weeks. At the same time, the planetary images concentrate on generosity, abundance and a feeling of being provided for, which means that this is good news for you. Your own appreciation and generosity will be appreciated more than once today, and recognize that “as you give, so shall you receive”.

Must need to keep an eye on the purse-strings. But I brought my OA Mate from Cookstown over to Moneymore, so I did help out Today. Also I had Therapy today; the one I had to constantly cancel. So it worked out well today.

Which will start my first Lent since starting OA. I’m apprehensive at best, as I fear what would happen at Home. My Brother says he is an Atheist and therefore would not participate and my Gran is the ultimate perfectionist. I just have to pray for them and focus on my own plans for Lent.

Also I have to remind myself how disastrous things might’ve been if it wasn’t for OA. It was a genuine case of ‘Divine Intervention’ that we got through the whole debacle of my Brother heading to New York last Year relatively unscathed. It was the help of my TRN/JFT friends and the OA fellowship in the local area which got me through the past 9 1/2 Months, with the titbits about ‘One day at a time’ and ‘Just for Today’ proving relief for me.

I pray to God that things will be better this time round.