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The malaise and anger from Yesterday has now evaporated and I feel great again. Today I went with my Autism Support Group for a walk into a small Forest at the Place I used to work in. I enjoyed the day. Later on Tonight I’ll be hablo espanol un poco again.

Here is Today’s Horoscope reading for me (Cancer):

Invitations to attend social events, perhaps business-related, could bring surprising results, dear Cancer. You could meet more than one person who shares some of your interests, and these people could become friends. Expect some interesting discussions, both practical and philosophical. An opportunity to travel abroad or to a distant state might open up for you. This could prove to be a most exciting and stimulating day. Make the most of it!

Besides eating rubbish throughout the week I had been projecting too much with regards to my New Job and the forthcoming week; my Cousin’s Wedding and the Car’s MOT.

This Afternoon I brought Gran to Sainsbury’s at Dungannon. We went to the in-store Cafe for a Cup of Tea. She grabbed a Danish; I think that’s what Americans call the Snail-Shaped Buns; without using the Tongs. This put me in a bad mood. Stinking Thinking returned.

Last Night I went to Cookstown Cinema to watch The Soloist. Excellent Film, but wasn’t comfortable viewing at times. Having Mental Health issues personally I can relate to the Story. I get emotionally involved in Music myself, which is why I don’t want to listen to the Radio when Driving.

My Meeting Tonight made me feel $1 Million again. There were only 4 people there and the Reading had to come from the Big Book as the OA Books were missing in action. But it was such a relief to know I’m not alone. I have to remind myself every week of that.

My Sponsor will soon return from Florida. I’ll get in contact with her ASAP.

I’m grateful for OA and all those I’ve chatted to here.

Regards,

Desmond.

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A truly inspiring Story.

A Man in the Armagh Meeting from Newry was explaining how he managed to believe in a Higher Power when he had no belief before. It shows that things take time. I mentioned how the Zealots; from the time of Jesus; ins[pired Jewish thinking of the Messiah as a great Warrior who will drive the Romans out of Israel. I also mentioned how that concept gradually influenced Christian thinking through the various Wars of the past 2000 or so Years.

Through the 12-Step Program I, and many others, have someone we can turn to at times of need. Someone who loves us and looks after us. The only thing we need to wage war on is resentment and negativity.

I thank my Higher Power I got to and from the Meeting safe and Sound.

It is time for you to refill the well of your soul, dear Cancer. So much of your life is spent in service to others, it is only natural that you will feel drained from time to time. Rather than trying to push past this feeling and going on as though nothing were the matter, you might instead consider it a sign that something is amiss in your life. If you are feeling unappreciated, admit it. You have spent too much of your life putting others’ happiness before your own. It is time to change your priorities.

This rings true for me. I had a bad day, nearly had an accident when driving; Young Hoodlums passed a Parked Minibus when I was approaching and didn’t give way to me. Then Gran was looking my Brother to do something he wouldn’t do. Suddenly I’m back in that deep dark place.

But I thank my HP that I avoided a collision and that things sorted out given time. I read the second Chapter of ‘The Spirituality of Imperfection’, which talks about Imperfections leading towards Perfection. That was my whole life in a Nutshell.

Just for Today, I’m glad to be safe and sound.

btw, My Sponsor is off to Florida with her Son.

Have you been reading up on how a positive mental outlook creates a healthy body and a happy life, dear Cancer? If so, you may just find that this attitude is bringing results. You’re feeling strong, fit, and mentally sharp, and career interests seem to be looking up for you. As a fringe benefit, you’re probably also feeling especially intuitive. Keep doing whatever you’ve been doing to bring this all about. It’s working!

The Mother of my old Boss in Cookstown; who I knew from my School Days; died during the Weekend. I wanted to send him a Mass Card and had another almighty row with Gran. She seems to have it in for the whole World. She mentioned an incident involving that Family and my Father about 25 Years Ago.

It seems that every Family has some form of Skeleton in their closet. Ours is no different. But I won’t let myself be dragged down because of them.

I ask my Higher Power to help me at this time. Terri is an advocate of Praying for those who did harm to You; Jesus was the same.

I was heading home from the Meeting and was lucky to avoid being hit by a Speeder on a Bad stretch of Road. Also managed to avoid a clash with another Car on a Bad bend prior. My Higher Power ensured I got home safe; this was the first time I went to the Armagh Meeting without Gran objecting. I thank my Higher Power.

The readings were about letting go of Resentments and finding a Sponsor. Having let go of the Many Resentments I have had when I first entered OA I feel much better now. My Higher Power ensured I got through the past 3 Months okay.

I am also grateful for the Online friends I have had on Recovery Sites. It was Terri’s suggestion I should join OA. Funny enough, the Secretary of the Dungannon Meeting last Tuesday said it was through the initial meeting in Newry that the meetings in Dungannon and Armagh were established. I am grateful for those who kept those 2 meetings going.

6Music has a Show on Sunday Nights from 10 to 12 hosted by Elbow Frontman Guy Garvey. He ends the show by saying, “Happy New Week!” It may be said as a form of Irony, but for anyone in Recovery it’s real. It’s a Happy New Week if we work our program.

So, Happy New Week everyone!

http://url.ie/2ehf

This Website was advertised in my local Surgery.

Having enjoyed the OA meetings I’ve attended I thought to myself of setting up one at the venue in Moneymore where I used to attend WeightWatchers. The Mid Ulster region has no OA Meeting to call its own, yet is inundated with WeightWatchers and SlimmingWorld Groups.

I also proposed having the meetings on a Saturday Morning/Afternoon as a Friend from Cookstown who used to attend the OA meetings in Dungannon says She is struggling since She can’t drive and can’t get a lift over. The Cookstown to Belfast Bus stops in Moneymore, therefore She can commute that way.

This is my way of helping.