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Having first attended the Armagh OA Meetings Last Sunday I did the same this Week. I had little of the Bothers getting through the City this time round. I remembered where I had to go. This time there were more Members there, including a Couple of New Members. It was a Good Meeting alltold.

The Reading was about Resentment, which brought me to the times when I was Stinkin Thinkin over my Brother and Gran rowing and me getting worked up over it. At times on JFT I wasn’t Mr Popular, I was in such a State then that I felt it was for nothing. However I took it to my HP and suddenly things worked out. As addicts we can empathise with each other with regards to our resnentments and how they ate into our Soul.

On the way home I got through okay, though there was a Bus behind me which got annoyed when we were taking different sides to the Roundabout; the Exit to Armagh Buscentre is to the right of the Exit to the Moy Road which I had to take home. I thank my HP for ensuring I was safe then. At The Moy I stopped at a Filling Station to get Petrol and some Stuff for Tomorrow’s Dinner. I had been to Lidl in Magherafelt earlier to get Museli, W5 Wipes and Vanilla Ice Cream which my Ex-Landlady buys at Lidl in France.

Just for Today I am Safe and Sound in the company of Friends. Hope to see everyone again on Tuesday Night in Dungannon.

Regards,

Des.

Really enjoyed the Stay, even though I was sick on the Flight over. I managed to get the TGV from CDG Airport to Angouleme in the Nick of time. The Train took almost 3 1/2 Hours. First Time nerves left me shattered; and I’m the Worst Clock Watcher in the World.

I tried my best to avoid Overeating. France has Lays Crisps in the Big American-Sized Bags; not good news. Though the TGV Dining Car had UK-Sized versions.

My Ex-Landlady, whom I was staying with, gave me Lidl Museli as well as Baguette Bread from a Local Boulangerie. On our way over from the Train Station we stayed at a Diner which was Self-Service. I had some Prawns, Rice and Pate. Crab was available, though I wasn’t particularly fond of it.

We ate light during the Afternoon and had our main Meal at Evenings. That bucks the French trend.

Away from Food I bought some Presents for Gran and our Cleaner at Local Markets. One was run by an African Couple. My Ex-Landlady asked if the Woman was Senegalese and She said, “Mais Oui!” and I just mentioned El-Hadji Diouf; a Famous Senegalese Footballer. She was over the Moon as She was a relative of his.

I’ll be returning to NI Tomorrow. But, even though I enjoyed France, I always enjoy returning Home. I am enjoying myself more now ever since joining OA.

Regards,

Des.

This Evening my Gran said She was too Ill to go to Mass, therefore I went just to go to Confession and to Pick up the Weekly Pamphlet. Afterwards I drove to the Indian in Magherafelt, had a Meal, then headed to the Pub I usually Attend. In there I said something I regret and on the way Back was agitated and angry. Also, I ordered a Chinese at 11 Last Night.

When I returned I realised I wasn’t following my Program. Afterwards I read a Section of the Big Book. It was about Denial; when I enjoyed it I couldn’t control but when I controlled it I couldn’t enjoy. It struck a Chord.

My HP works in mysterious ways.

I read a Passage on Monday about accepting Powerlessness over Anger and Rage; from the new Book I received. Today was the first major test of that, with Gran going on about me only buying One Pair of Shorts for heading to France. I just have to accept that and carry on as normal.

This Morning I drove to Ballymena and Back. Using the Sat Nav on the way Home showed me a better Road to and from there; avoiding the Double Roundabout. I bought some stuff at Peacocks there, as well as more CDs at HMV.

Made a New Gratitude List Last Night. My Laptop is away to be formatted so I’m using my Brother’s Laptop. I’m grateful for so much, most of which I didn’t realise when things were bad.

Meetings are going Grand. Really enjoying the Input I get from them.

In recent times I have been projecting about heading to France Next Week; and also to London for Halloween. I have been losing focus, when Driving today I had a few Harum Scarum moments.

I am a firm believer that there is no such thing as Coinsidencde and that everything happens for a reason. Signs from Above come in the most unsuspecting ways. I will have a quick Pep Talk with my Sponsor.

In other news, I received a new Book in the Post Today. ‘Act on Life, not on Anger’. Basically a 12-Step Programme for Rage Addicts; like Myself. It even quotes the Serenity Prayer.

I need to get back on Track.

Regards,

Des.

I thought my GF was the one for me, then she told me today that She wasn’t interested in a Relationship with ANY Man and that we were just friends.

I won’t fall out with her over this, but I’m hurting deep down inside. I had played up my hopes too much; this was the first Serious Relationship I’ve been involved with. I can still visit her.

Plenty of Fish in the Sea. I’m coping thanks to the OA  programme.

I’ve just been offered a Part-Time Post designing and Maintaining a Website for the Autism Charity I’m involved with. The Post starts in October and I can’t wait to get started. I’ll ask my HP for guidance throughout the post.

Regards,

Des.

This Morning my Gran and Brother had another massive row which errupted Big Time. Overhearing it I stayed in my Room saying the Serenity Prayer, hoping things would die down. Then my Brother sent me an e-mail full of the BS he has learned from his YouTube mates.

I then looked at my Horoscope on Yahoo, which said:
Unguarded words on the part of a younger person might lead to upset. If the words are directed at you, don’t take them seriously. The person doesn’t know any better, dear Cancer. If the words are directed at someone else, don’t be tempted to lash out at the person saying them. Correct them gently. Either way, keep it all to yourself, then put it behind you. It’s not worth stressing out over.

This was a real test of Acting onlife rather than reacting to it.

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